A Midsummer Daydream

Thoughts – a brief imprint of time. A moment, fleeting, flies away.

Wanders and wanders and wanders.

FIELDNOTES

03/10/2026 (Tuesday) –

I’ll never love as I’ve loved- each instance a shade of You & I.

03/24/2026 (Tuesday) –
– It feels like to me that the answer lies in between…How do i love deeply & purely myself and others?

I must not be selfish but prioritize the needs of me & those. I must seek to love freely myself & others for it flows freely when it is given & reciprocated. I emanate pure and un-wanting bliss, endless. That loves myself & the world. How do i prioritize my dreams? How do i be deeply rooted within myself to ear closely enough the whispers of my guiding voice? These answers lies in the presence of the every day moments… The in-between…

05/20/2026 (Wedensday) –

I find the path of self discovery a cycle of endless forgetting and remembering. And in the moments of forgetting, we observe the remembering from a different point of view, and in the moments of remembering, we view the forgetting in a different light. I find myself observing the subleties of how I’ve changed over time. And I wonder to myself am I changing for the better?

3 responses to “FIELDNOTES”

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    Crow232

    Maybe the question isn’t whether you’re changing for the better, but whether you’re becoming more honest with yourself. Growth rarely moves in a straight line; it often feels like losing your way, only to return with deeper understanding. The fact that you can see both who you were and who you are becoming suggests that change is already happening. Perhaps remembering and forgetting are not opposites. They are partners in the same process of becoming

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    Crow232

    disregard the “change is already happening “ line form my previous comment, it seems nuanced and cliche hahah

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    Crow232

    P.S

    The self is not something we find once and keep forever. It is something we lose, rediscover, and reinterpret endlessly. What you call forgetting may simply be the shedding of old certainties, and what you call remembering may be a return to truths that have survived every version of you.

    Now does each return brings you closer to what feels most real? That’s a solid question just saying .

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