So, today i received my High School Transcript. I’m not going to say what i got but lets just say i was depressed for about 5 minutes (which is a long time for me to be depressed). It was not an accurate representation of my abilities of a student – but it was an accurate representation of my attitude as a student. You see, i am more of a test taker. All of my standardized test scores are usually in the 90 percentile (except for last years TCAPS where i fell asleep but lets not get into that). But my grades are very poor. Lets just say i was 200 out of around 600 students in my grade. That is not okay. My work ethic is very low, i value knowledge but i hate having to do the meaningless projects and stupid assignments which my underpaid teachers attempt to make ‘fun’. 

Work at home – Homework should be optional. Not worth a grade. If school was only tests, i would pass with flying colors since i retain information very quickly. But when it comes to things which are used to help students grasp the information, it is useless to me since i can already understand it.

Perhaps i should be homeschooled… 

This semester i will try my hardest to escape this hole i have dug for myself. Even if it means putting countless hours into things that are unnecessary. I know i can go far and i won’t let a few (a lot) of assignments not done hold me down. I

I hope this motivation lasts until i find new motivation. Perhaps i should tape my transcript to my mirror so that every time i look up in the morning, i will be motivated to do better. Finding motivation is my struggle. For i have absolutely none. 

Sigh… Cheer me on. I don’t know how i’m going to succeed with this attitude of mine. 

Oh (funny story of the day) i fell asleep in AP Government (like i always do) and i woke up in time for lunch. The lights were always off so that is why it is so easy to fall asleep taking notes. Anyways i felt a warm trickle going down my neck. I reached up and wiped it to find blood on my hand. I had a cut on my neck and chin. After lunch i went back to class to find that this blood was all over my notes as well since i usually put my chin down on the desk and fall asleep (this is why i have such a bad hunch back). I feel like my pencil attacked me in my sleep or something. Otherwise i have no other explanation for what happened, 

I suppose that wasn’t really funny… 

Anywho I should stop procrastinating and go do homework (or minecraft). 

Goodbye! Until next time.